will last with him forever

Thursday, June 11, 2009 @ Thursday, June 11, 2009

haix...just heard one more sad
thin is my grandma problem haix..
her last wish is to see my father and
my uncle b4 she go sia..haix,....i kinda fkin no
mood sia...plus todae went to see doctor
my father dun even ask mi hw de result u
go see doctor...but he did nt even ask mi haix..
but i went home show de letteer to my mum
she also like dun care like tat ...hai.x...i dun
even know whether my own parent realli care mi
anot just wan them to be happy everydae and nt sad wor..
but always see them like so sad like tat i also even cant do
anythin about it.,..just nw when my father come back
like veri sad wanna cry out like tat haix and he so fan sia..
actually wanted ask him about this sat trip to malaysia de..
but see him like tat i also dunevendare to ask...plus de gentin
trip too as nw happen so mani thin le...haix...
perhaps...i should nt have started all this haix...
hmmm...i nw feel sad about mmy grandma they all just feel like
doin sth haix...i realli veri hurt nw...dun even know wat i goin
to do...am i so useless haix...i think so ba...i dun even know how
to make them happy as to always make them worry about mi and
make them angry about mi...i feel tat i so useless as i cant help anythin
haix...just wanna die le la...haix...perhaps somemore todae i see doctor
i dun even ask parent for money wor...as ytd i ask le...haix...
i just dunno sia...as my parent got quarrel cos of their mother thingy which
is both of my grandma haix...i dunno y...sometimes feel like goin to quiet place
to quiet down as it realli veri fan...haix...nw is my father side de mother
gt problem as he nw veri fan haix...i also dunno hw to cheer him up
haix...y suddenly so mani thin happen at de same times...as i dun
even know wat am i goin to do nw...perhaps i realli veri useless feel
i nt even care for them haix...somemore my parent are so upset nw
haix...even just nwmy mother wanna cry haix...when she heard this thin too
haix...i also feel like cryin out somehow is veri hard to accept it.,..haix..
i just hope everythin willbe fine,...haix...y life is so sudden and miserable...
y cant they just go peacefully and must make it more tong ku haix...
i just hope she could go peacefully and nt so tong ku haix...
as my father keep give her life and make himself live shorter in de world haix..
y must like tat i just dunno y...is realli veri sad and hurt i just dunno y they
must like tat...does it realli care haix...it willlmake both parties more tongku...
as life is so sudden wan go jiu go haix...as i dun even know wat am i goin to
do next...haix perhaps it realli will takemi alot of times to cure ba..haix
u guys wont know wat my feelin is de.....haix......